My sense of time is… to be honest I’m not sure I really have one. I don’t mean the way I’m often late to things but that I can’t tell sometimes when or how things happen, like I need to really think in order to anchor myself in the timing on any given thing. I … Read More
Something strange happened at the weekend which I didn’t notice at the time. I asked someone how many partners they had, they said five serious and two play and I said whew that’s too many. The thing is, that didn’t used to be, for me I mean obviously. I’m not even talking pre-Jellicle when it … Read More
DS Luke convinced me to head out to the D&D movie. I treated myself to a full on self-date including VIP seating in the cinema, I even wore a nice dress and did my makeup. It was fun and I think it’s the first time since my birthday that I’ve dressed myself up and gone … Read More
(Content warning Frank descriptions of my thoughts and feelings about the weekend just past) Seeing them hurt. Seeing them and realising how bad my mental health had been last year really hurt. I mean it’s still pretty bad, I’m still being stupidly gentle with myself to try and make sure the basics are happening or … Read More
I’ve got to admit I’m pretty impressed when it comes to gaming my brain. The last time I was here I did yoga every morning before the game started, so yesterday I stashed my yoga stuff in the same room as I used for it last time. (I am lacking a beautiful Spanish roleplayer doing … Read More
I was hoping to play Ten Candles but the Chellington Centre doesn’t allow candles inside and it was raining so Radio Phil ran Dread inside instead. I rather liked it, it used jenga instead of dice for decisions and obviously if you knocked the tower over then that meant grave consequences for your character. This … Read More
Baking is something I really enjoy but tonight im absolutely doing it in order to displace nerves. This weekend will be the first time I’ve seen my Welsh partners since we broke up. I’ve never done a long distance break up before and I have no idea how to do this. I suspect in actuality … Read More
I just got off FaceTime to my Mum in which I did a reasonable impersonation of snorting cocaine slightly to the side of the screen. This is obviously because today I got a prescription for Lisdexamfetamine and the doctor had to give me a briefing about not taking illegal drugs or alcohol with it. I … Read More
I’ve been thinking about asking the psychiatrist tomorrow about what an autistic shutdown looks like. It’s because when I’ve been reading about mental breaks they’ve been talking about immense emotional symptoms whereas I just went to bed and dissociated wildly. However that’s me not recognising my own emotions really, there was a break within my … Read More
Today DS Luke sent the WOW Addict to talk to me about the new poly relationship she finds herself in because I’ve been poly for over twenty years at this point… I don’t think I’ve ever felt like a bigger hypocrite. Yeah sure I’m great at poly if we ignore last November when I had … Read More
