It’s kind of weird that I wrote about Pedro Rodrigues Filha and the latest facts I’d learned about him only days before his death. Or rather it seems that way to me because my sense of focus is upon myself. In anycase, I’d had him in the back of my mind because the idea that … Read More
(Content Warning – my mental health is still not great and this is a musing about that) The last couple of weeks has been bad when it comes to my mental and physical state. Then, driving home from the Empire event a friend messaged me. And my entire body relaxed. The whole conversation I was … Read More
My first Empire event of the year. I was originally looking forwards to it, a chance to get out and do things, get into Empire without my Welsh partners being there. Then – everything seems to have gone wrong and I’m not in a great headspace. The Jellicle made me jewellery especially for this event … Read More
(Content warning – a whole lot of up myself naval gazing but then this is what you’ve had for weeks isn’t it? Mentions ASD and ADHD) There is a confidence that comes with diagnosis and talking to a professional who can explain what’s going on in your head. It matters what you tell yourself, and … Read More
Apparently giving lectures on Serial Killers in Lancaster is a profitable racket. I was slightly surprised that The Grand was packed out. According to one of the women who do this regularly there are a few lecturers who are on this circuit. I guess if it’s a podcast genre then why not have it as … Read More
Managed to park without issue in central Manchester today – yes it’s a ridiculous thing to be proud of but I am. For a bit over two weeks now my heart has hurt, I guess I wondered if it would show up on the reading; it didn’t because of course it’s psychological pain not physical. … Read More
(Contains spoilers for Les Miserables) Apparently this year I go and see shows in London. This time it was for work. I can tell I’m not over the latest bout of covid because everything just made me incredibly tired. When I wasn’t supporting the boss I was laying down or sleeping. I’m back on the … Read More
I don’t know if it’s unregulated emotions or what but every so often this feeling that it’s all going to be alright absolutely washes over me. There’s no rhyme or reason to it just this sense that authenticity is the way, truth and love and all of it. I think this is what’s making me … Read More
I’ve been thinking a lot about The Old Guy I used to work with today. He had an adult ADHD diagnosis and later developed dementia, a lot of the people at the nursing home were very surprised that he wasn’t more distressed by the dementia. It was because he was used to the idea that … Read More
(Content Warning – poor mental health, description of a mental break, mention of suicide) I’ve mentioned a few times that I suffered from a mental break last year. They used to be called nervous breakdowns. Technically a doctor can’t say definitively that I did because I didn’t immediately end up in in-patient care. However two … Read More
