I think I know why the ‘I want to believe’ thing bugs me. It comes across as patronising, there’s something about it that reads like whoever is saying it is looking at me like I’m three and having very literal belief in Father Christmas. I know they do, or I suppose you do depending on … Read More
I find the phrase ‘I want to believe’ such a strange one. I guess I particularly associate it with men who are about ten or fifteen years older than me. Blame David Duchovny and Fox Mulder for that one I guess. I find belief sort of a difficult concept to be honest. I can say … Read More
Opening presents in bed is something The Jellicle and I like to do. One of the reasons I was pretty sad about her being ill was not being able to do that, we approximated it though, with FaceTime. Isn’t living in the future fantastic? Mum got me a lovely bag and The Jellicle found me … Read More
Today started with some disappointment for me, I like my birthday, very much and I like making something of it. Some years that has been having a cuppa and cake with DS Luke, always I take it off work and have done my whole adult life. Sometimes I have a full roast dinner with my … Read More
At least two of my core memories involve my primary school teacher telling me I was a liar in front of other children and in front of adults about things I was telling the truth about. Adults not believing me whether or not, and actually especially not when, I was telling the truth was a … Read More
Sometime in 2008 I stopped Dom (Princess Lex’s car – I was driving at the time ) and demanded the Jellicle and/or FJ get out and grab me the rather fantastic bottle I had seen discarded at the recycling point in Hala. The Jellicle moaned and they all laughed at me. I made up a … Read More
I don’t know how it started but FJ and I give each other crème eggs at New Years and we’ve been getting weirdly competitive about it. In a funny way, I mean, not a serious way. It’s some kind of joke the meaning of which or humour in which is tangential non- explainable and just … Read More
Last year I kept them specific and I kept them a lot more than I have done previously. 1. I have three stone to lose, that’s three tattoos I’ll reward myself with. 2. I’ll write everyday 3. I will compile my poetry into a manuscript 4. I will draw every week.
1.What did you do in 2023 that you’d never done before? Got turned in a vampire LARP! Took meds for ADHD Got qualified in Oncology Massage. 2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I did and I will, it gives me good focus 3. Did anyone … Read More
I love Yuletide, I just absolutely love it, all the things to share with people and make joyful in the middle of the cold. Last year I just couldn’t connect with it, I don’t think I’d quite realised that I was heavily dissociated from everything this time last year, I just knew I was sad … Read More
