I had forgotten how much of a physical feeling heartbreak is. The first time my heart was broken was just before Christmas, possibly even Christmas Eve, I had a secret boyfriend and I had to go up to the payphone the otherside of the village to call him and talk to him without my parents … Read More
(Content Warning: Attempted Suicide, Violence, gory description, mentions of my own problems with suicidal ideation) FJ and I sat down tonight and drank the last of my good whisky. I had about a triple I suspect. I haven’t needed a drink like that in a long time but tonight I really did. I need to … Read More
I have a boyfriend again. The concept of it is a bit, sort of confusing to me I guess. But it’s good, I’m sort of almost meditating on the idea of it and coming up with a level of contentment that I wouldn’t have expected a couple of years ago. The Fae Ref spent the … Read More
This is such a weird question to me. I don’t know. When do people start to know? I’ve always known that I find women incredibly attractive, but when I was a teenager the level to which that was normalised seems a lot more than now, like obviously all women find women attractive, it doesn’t mean … Read More
The thing is, it really does depend why you’re scared to come out. It’s one thing if you’re a nervous teenager discovering who you actually are but in an otherwise supportive situation, it’s entirely another if you’re in a country where being queer is illegal or if you’re in a part of this country where … Read More
Oh I really liked this prompt, I love to cook and making food is a major love language of mine, Pride is all about Love so yes recipes for Pride is an excellent idea! So ok, I want some celebration but I also want some practical considerations here, so I’m going to be putting together … Read More
So what are my letters within this QUILTBAG of ours? I massively prefer using Quitlbag because I can say it as a word. I know a number of people don’t but hey this is my blog so suck it I guess. I’m very obviously B, bisexual… I’ve just realised that my beloved Quiltbag doesn’t have … Read More
Oh my gods how do I choose!?! My Top (series) was obvious to me but I did need to think to get it down to one and I very nearly just Anna Madrigal’d the whole list… however I put a bit of thought into this instead! 5. Fingersmith – by Sarah Waters. Yeah I know … Read More
(Content Warning: I’m talking about sex and specifics about my sex life) I think the word I want to describe my mood right now is probably jubilant. Jubilant definitely feels right and I’m almost certain it’s got a similar root as jubilee…nope I just checked and it’s similar sounding Latin that’s apparently confusing me. In … Read More
It’s complicated to try and divide how being Queer vs how societies perceptions of being queer affected my mental health. Because honestly, being attracted to other girls, in and of itself, hadn’t been a problem. The feelings surrounding trying to keep it hidden, those have fucked me up. I think on some levels they still … Read More
