For years I have assumed that my sense of smell has just deadened over the years down to asthma and allergies. My primary asthma symptom has always been sneezing rather than coughing so that threw people a bit when it came to noticing my breathing. That and the allergies. So I just figured that all … Read More
(Content Warning – Mental health healing is messy, I suffered a mental break last year and this entry is basically stream of consciousness thoughts from therapy. Mentions CPTSD, ASD, ADHD and all that good stuff) If you want me to apologise verbally then often I need to know because a lot of times when I’ve … Read More
Together Forever has advertised again, not the in person game Together at Last, but the actual online version that I fell in love with over the pandemic. I’ve signed up but I have to admit I’m slightly curious about how many people will sign up. After all I know at least one former enthusiast who … Read More
(Content Warning – this discusses my personal history of suicide ideation – I am frank about being suicidal as a teenager. Don’t worry I am not actively suicidal right now) I have been suicidal for the vast majority of my life. Most of my adult life has been about managing that desire/urge/background assumption. I don’t … Read More
I am running a Dungeons and Dragons gane. It is possibly the maddest idea I’ve ever had. In order to get a solid world I’m running multiple pre-written games linked roughly together in a meta-plot that (hopefully) scoops up all the characters together. In between big game moments the players end up interrogating the various … Read More
Spent the day with M-I-L playing puzzle games while FJ is in London. Gossip, decorative style and writing were the topics of the day. She is much better and more organised at writing research than I am, surprising no one I would guess. It was a good day. Then I drove home in the rain … Read More
Rejection Sensitivity is one of those things that I’ve always kind of assumed I don’t have. I certainly don’t get sensitive to everyday rejections, or rather things that other people seem to perceive as rejection but that I don’t. I think that’s the key point here really I don’t assume I’m being rejected right up … Read More
It’s a full moon tonight, or it might be tomorrow I’m not totally sure (yeah I know not great witching on my part) in any case it’s big and round enough as makes no odds. It looked spectacular and I viscerally missed the year I did full moon rituals in the grove. I might go … Read More
I have a horrific fascination with cults. Especially the sort of really dodgy ones with a personality st the centre persuading the members to do horrific things. Obviously I have a fascination with suicide cults – it’s not really my suicide ideation st play there though, it’s more about a fascination with what the human … Read More
Last week Beautiful Lute sent me a TikTok link which was a neuroscientist talking about rewriting your brain to appreciate tiny little joys. I’m not right at the moment mostly because I think working through trauma makes you miserable whilst you’re going through it and I seem to have so much just going on with … Read More
