Ok I’m actually warm and I am AMAZED by this. It is very fucking cold, I think it’s been colder but not by much. We haven’t totally scored when it comes to our set up tonight, we’ve missed a couple of things but I’m laying here in my sleeping bag and thank fuck I’m warm. … Read More
I actually felt some semblance of connection around the Sigehold campfire tonight. Which is pretty good considering I haven’t really been feeling that lately. It was just the trace of it but it was enough to enjoy for now I think. The fire was not especially warming against the cold but the stories were familiar … Read More
I struggle regularly, but especially when talking about this blog in real life, with explaining why this is on the internet. Why do I have a blog if not to in some way pose for my audience or perceived audience… and that is in some way true or at least I always thought it was. … Read More
Today I cried. Nominally because I was printing out massage forms for a case study and it wasn’t The Racconteur. This is the first course I’m doing that he isn’t one of my case studies. My tutor in Glasgow is never going to tell me she thinks I made him up. For the last fortnight … Read More
I love this time of year, maybe ideally a couple of weeks before now actually. But from when the first bits of cherry blossom emerge in March and onwards into full throated trees of flowers I just love the fact that the trees are boughs and boughs of pretty colours. There’s something about how they … Read More
One thing I do like about going to my niblings birthday parties is I essentially get to LARP as a perfectly normal person. I got asked if the Tiny Yokai was mine several times, I was amused. I also got to wear my dinosaur dress and it was excellent fun, I need a better bra … Read More
I’m very excited about my middle nephew’s birthday party on Friday. It’s dinosaur and monster truck themed and I bought myself a dinosaur dress. I went for a skater dress rather than a faux fifties thing. I need to be able to move for a four year old’s birthday and not have my petticoats at … Read More
(Content warning – descriptions of me being in pain and thinking about death, including parental death) So I had heart palpitations and a small increase in blood pressure (went from normal to pre high) following about a week on the Lisdexamfetamine and a glass of wine – although according to the doctor that didn’t actually … Read More
I think I might be Depressed. But that doesn’t feel right to be honest, I feel somehow dissociated from my own self. None of this feels like The Swamp, I’ve been managed my own Depression pretty well and this doesn’t feel right. My willpower is pretty shot right now, I know that I have excess … Read More
My sense of time is… to be honest I’m not sure I really have one. I don’t mean the way I’m often late to things but that I can’t tell sometimes when or how things happen, like I need to really think in order to anchor myself in the timing on any given thing. I … Read More
