Le week-end dernier, je suis allée à une boum! Mais, c’est ne pas correct. J’ai organisé une fête! C’etait en ligne. J’ai utilisé Discord et j’aime bien les resultes. Beaucoup des personnes attendes et j’ai été surpris parce que c’est un peu difficile d’assister d’une soirée enligne. Ma soeur et new neveux attends avec mon … Read More
That stages of grief woman got the emotions bang on. I seem to be rapidly cycling through them some days and other weeks floating through different ones much longer. What is really helping though is my having taken LSD. Not recently, but in the past. (Seriously it was hard already to get hold of it, … Read More
Some days I am better than others. Dad is gone and everything I didn’t manage to do and tell him about some days hits hard. Some days it puts me into his back patio one summer’s day talking about his grief for his Dad. I had longer with him than he had with his Dad. … Read More
No Remote Pride prompt today, it feels weird. I’m missing my Dad. The Princess, Mum and I discussed gravestones today and looked at what we wanted written on Dad’s. There’s some other memorials we talked about too. Mum cried, I didn’t, quite. The Princess is less bothered by grave markers than she is by other … Read More
Well, that’s it. I have made it through my first Father’s Day without Dad. No phonecall home asking him how his beer was or to tell him that it was also the Summer Solstice today and some vaguely pagan words and vague descriptions of the Litha ritual I did. To be honest I think that’s … Read More
Since Dad got ill with pre-Leukaemia and then myeloid leukaemia I’ve been incredibly conscious that any given interaction could be our last. Every phone call that I made, every visit. I really focussed on things I wanted to make sure I told him, like really big life things. And I was aware of what I … Read More
If you had asked me last year what I thought about videoing funerals I would have said there was no need. Upon further questioning I like to think I would have admitted the use of live-streaming for family in disparate parts of the world to attend. (I say this because I delayed going to Japan … Read More
My Dad died last month, on the 22nd April. It was heart failure due to his leukaemia on top of an underlying heart condition, but because the UK is in the middle of lockdown it’s taken this long for us to have a funeral. That and last week there was a point we wondered if … Read More
This contains spoilers for the Cats Movie (and the stageshow and if it’s possibile to spoiler early 20th century books of poetry then it also spoilers Old Possum’s Book of Practical Cats). So, I enjoyed this movie but I do have one specific criticism and that leads me into some discussion of racism. I also … Read More
I’ve written on this blog a fair amount about my deceased Grandma, I think probably because I started this blog in 2002, (well the forerunner to what became this blog) and she died in 2003. My Grandma B is alive. For the majority of my life I used to call her once a week and … Read More
