There’s something that people are saying, that I’ve said even, that I don’t believe. “When this is over” “When things get back to normal” I think that this situation reminds me a lot of first getting ill. I say first getting ill, my particular combination of improperly healed injury and glandular fever that wouldn’t leave … Read More
Am I just waiting to die? I have no idea, probably if I’m going to get hit by covid19 at it’s height then I’ve already got it. If I’ve already got it I’m not sure that theres any amount of cleaning of my client’s surfaces or wearing of masks and gloves that will help. But … Read More
(Content Warning: Contains Mention of Suicide Ideation and Death, Spoilers for Little Women) I’m going into work in a bit. Yeah, there’s a plague (I’m not sure if I’m allowed to call it that). But yes, I am a key worker and I need to go in and sort out medication for an at risk … Read More
Sometimes I catch myself feeling astonishingly self-satisfied with my life. I have travelled (four continents and counting), I have eaten some truly weird stuff (including guinea-pig – several times, alligator – not recommended and rat-onna-stick – kind of wish I was joking about that one) and I have met some fascinating people (the guy who’d … Read More
I think one of the most annoying and frustrating things that people have said to me since I started sharing my chronic fatigue symptoms was about yoga. The comment that they didn’t understand why I found yoga poses to be cardio exercises. Now, yoga can be cardio, but generally they’d be talking about my finding … Read More
Day One of a two day visit to a Spa with my Mum. I’ve been here before, over ten years ago but at least then it was me, M-I-L and Mum and there was no over night stay. This comes after the awkward moment in France earlier this year when Mum got as far as … Read More
I think the worst thing about recovery, any recovery, physical, mental, everything is that it’s never a straight line. There’s no straight forward gradually rising slope upwards. It’s all curling back and forth getting something right, whilst something else goes wrong. It’s frustrating. Unless you look at it like a game of Talisman I guess. … Read More
In a very real way I am living the life I wanted to as a kid. Sure, if I were to meet my eleven year old self now I’d have to tell her that I didn’t go to Oxford University (and am actually pretty relieved about that) and am not yet a published author (it … Read More
I have pretty much just slept for two days straight, pretty much the only reason I got up today was work. The Boss needed a prescription picked up (technically I’m on holiday from them but available in emergencies) and The Magic Fan needed some socialising. I tried out Magic the Gathering Unstable for the first … Read More
This winter I have felt particularly aggrieved every time I’ve got a cold. I’m behaving like I’ve got man-flu or something! The aches and fatigues just feel as if they’re the straw before the camel’s back breaks. See – I can’t stop being melodramatic about them! The Girl With the Golden Hair and I were … Read More
