2020 was a study in grief for me, an understanding of the sheer heaviness of it, the shaking emotion of it. Every day I had to remind myself in the morning that my father was dead, because I was terrified that I would forget and try to call him or have to relive the initial … Read More
I am staying in The White County at The Jellicle’s parents for Christmas. I’m not sure the last time I was here for Christmas, to be quite honest I’m not sure the last time I wasn’t working until Christmas Eve or Christmas Day and yet this year I finished yesterday and I’m not working again … Read More
For most of my life I have been Depressed and for some of that I’ve also suffered with Anxiety. That has I think been responsible for my pervading sense of isolation, I complained earlier this year that my main LARP character, Liissá wasn’t especially fun to play because she is essentially a very lonely person. … Read More
(Content Warning: Discusses Dementia) “Before the Roman came to Rye or out to Severn strode,The rolling English drunkard made the rolling English road.” This week I recited poetry with an old guy that I work with. He’s been sharp as anything ever since. This is the old guy who occaisionally thinks I’m his daughter. Which, … Read More
(Content Warning: I am going to be frank about how I managed my reactions upon being confronted by an unexpected assault in a LARP, my having been raped, being queer as a teen in the nineties – don’t read if you’re not up for it) Why am I writing this? Mostly to get it out … Read More
I collected postcards. I stopped because I was running out of places to put them but I think I’d quite like to start again. I like pictures that indicate places. I also think I’m happier with the notion of putting things into display books rather than needing everything to be up on a wall so … Read More
I think that of all the emotions grief is my least favourite.
Nearly the end of my week off. I say week off, I’ve been working from home, sending emails and making phonecalls for the high risk guy I can’t go in for and prepping things for other client’s I’m working for at the weekend. Obviously this being me I’ve also organised two tabletop rpg games, one … Read More
This contains spoilers for the Cats Movie (and the stageshow and if it’s possibile to spoiler early 20th century books of poetry then it also spoilers Old Possum’s Book of Practical Cats). So, I enjoyed this movie but I do have one specific criticism and that leads me into some discussion of racism. I also … Read More
1.What did you do in 2019 that you’d never done before? Spent two nights at a Spa 2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Ish and yes 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? My sister gave birth! I met the Smol Dragon when he … Read More
