I can tell I missed my anxiety meds this morning, I am plagued by thoughts dancing around telling me what a disappointment I was to my Dad. I think that coming up to this first anniversary we are all going to find things hard. I wish I’d been well when he died, I wish I … Read More
I think that of all the emotions grief is my least favourite.
Once, when I was ten or eleven and I and my family were on holiday in the south of France, we went to a beach the day after a storm. The waves were like nothing I’d seen before and like nothing I’ve seen since, though I’m sure they grew in my imagination. In my memory … Read More
I had today off. I spent it dyeing my hair. I played some Minecraft on a shared server and some multiplayer Stardew Valley. It was all very gentle and mostly involved making things look nice on a screen. I didn’t go out all day and I feel so much less stressed than I have in … Read More
I had today off. I spent it dyeing my hair. I played some Minecraft on a shared server and some multiplayer Stardew Valley. It was all very gentle and mostly involved making things look nice on a screen. I didn’t go out all day and I feel so much less stressed than I have in … Read More
Last night I went to bed without my pyjamas on, not an unusual circumstance but drifting off to sleep I was aware that it has hit autumn and it is too cold to sleep nude now. Anyway about four am I wake up for no good reason (I’m warm, my brain is just convinced I … Read More
I am thirty seven. I have no children. I am not displeased by this but I am surprised. I had assumed that I would end up with children no matter what I tried to do with my life. The notion that what I do, what I aim for and what I attempt actually affects my … Read More
1.What did you do in 2018 that you’d never done before? Got pushed on a roundabout by the Bonsai Kaiju 2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I mostly kept them, failed at some and I will continue to make more next year because I find … Read More
I have to admit that I enjoyed turning thirty. I know that FJ agrees with me and I’m fairly sure that there are other people out there too who think it’s kinda good to be this old. I actually feel like I know what I’m doing a lot of the time. Do I feel like … Read More
J’ai passe ma journee a penser a quoi ecrire dans mon blog. Je pensais que je pourraise ecrire sur ma nouvelle poupee Hello Kitty. Je l’aime beaucoup. Je pensais que je pourrais ecrire sur mon sort un defi de jour. A mon avis, c’est tres bien pour mon ame. En outre, j’ai achete diverses choses … Read More
