Generally speaking I’m quite a content person. I suffer from Depression and have a cynical inner voice who I find very funny. Sometimes, and I suspect it is because my default is to be happy, I’m criticised for looking after my own physical and mental health rather than bending over backwards to help others with … Read More
A word of warning, this post may veer into the self-congratulatory. Feel free to comment appropriately. Earlier I was explaining to someone that I had been diagnosed with my fourth chronic illness. They reacted. My inner voice as they reacted was basically saying “calm down it’s not a tragedy.” I suspect their emotional response was … Read More
I recently joined Noom because I’m four stone overweight. Last time I needed to lose weight I did it mostly by myself and via willpower. This time around I’m allergic to raw fruit and vegetables (technically I was last time I just didn’t know it…) and have chronic pain and fatigue. My willpower is more … Read More
My Mother thinks I’m incredibly sad, in the opposite of cool sense of that word. She called today and I told her I was having Eurovision drinks. I could hear her and her inner musician roll her eyes over the phone. My Mum likes my friends with ‘Edge’, to say she likes my Depressed, Suicidal … Read More
Yesterday I fucked up in a way I haven’t for years. Communication via text is always problematic for me but yesterday was completely and utterly spectacular on my part. Having anticipated a difficult conversation I suddenly found myself misunderstood by two people I assumed wouldn’t misunderstand me. The conversation went completely backwards to my expectations … Read More
I loved turning thirty. I found that I finally had a sense of being an adult whilst feeling capable. Right now, I feel old, it’s not so much the numbers on the cards it’s more the being ill. I’m tired all the time and I ache and simple things are really hard. I feel old … Read More
For the last two years I don’t think it’s too far off for me to stay I’ve been driven mad by stress. The Interupter, Bilbo, DS Luke et al can attest to the fact that I’ve had honest to gods hallucinations due to my insomnia. (Nothing too fantastical just movements out of the corner of … Read More
