And the balance point has been passed. The nights get longer now. Throw yourself into the night, the quest becomes less corporeal now. Now, move, assert control over the night, we have given and we have taken and we are what we are and we know. Push, pull, move along the threads, one and weave, … Read More

It’s the equinox tonight. The celebration of a world in balance. The celebration of the death needed before the process of rebirth can begin. So many things have died, I feel the need to mourn tonight, and then follow the direction of rebirth. Out into the light.

Some days I have these feelings that somewhere, sometime I missed something that I could have done better. Better in some unspecified way of course. Morally? Emotionally? Ethically? I’m just not the most reliable person at the moment I guess.

Help, I need somebody Help, not just anybody Help, you know I need someone, help When I was younger (So much younger than) so much younger than today (I never needed) I never needed anybody’s help in any way (Now) But now these days are gone (These days are gone), I’m not so self assured … Read More

I honestly don’t think I’m making particularly good judgements at the moment. About anything. I feel like I’m desperately trying to make everything ok for – well pretty much anyone excluding myself. I really appreciate everyone who has come round and hugged me or talked to me or listened to me rant and everyone who … Read More

Is, that there is no place to go on except on. Doesn’t matter why, doesn’t matter what mistakes we make, ultimately we are the ones who have to live with them. The only thing to do is to keep walking. Mishes bounce, why do we bounce? There are no other options.

We turned on the central heating. It’s so cold! Discussed NLP last night and came to the conclusion this morning that most people are so wrapped up in themselves that they don’t know how people work. (I’m not taking myself out of the equation here). Updating my CV again and applying for jobs again. I … Read More

So I looked up from my burrow today to discover that other things have been happening in the wonderful wide world of Lancaster. I have some opinions. Gossip is fun. Gossip is absolutely the best way to spend an afternoon with a mate. Gossip should be taken with a pinch of salt. Because lets face … Read More

As a month September always seems to bring with it a great deal of change. Change sweeping along like a gale. Everyone in it’s path blown all over the place and trying to figure out where they fit.

Robert Jordan died. Dammit dammit dammit.