I struggle regularly, but especially when talking about this blog in real life, with explaining why this is on the internet. Why do I have a blog if not to in some way pose for my audience or perceived audience… and that is in some way true or at least I always thought it was. … Read More
In two weeks I will complete my current run of therapy. It’s been a bit of a trip, working through and processing old trauma right in the middle of new trauma. Trying to remain present when all this is happening around me is really hard and my coping mechanisms have gotten really unhealthy. On the … Read More
Write something Queer is today’s prompt. Alrighty then. It’s a bit open ended in all honesty. Being queer is like a dream about flying. There’s the sky and the clouds and the whole world laid out beneath you and it feels amazing and there’s an awesome view. But sometimes you plummet and you’re wondering how … Read More
In a very real way I am living the life I wanted to as a kid. Sure, if I were to meet my eleven year old self now I’d have to tell her that I didn’t go to Oxford University (and am actually pretty relieved about that) and am not yet a published author (it … Read More
There’s apparently a bit of a conspiracy theme running through my head this week. I had dinner and a catch up with DS Luke tonight – not sure if catch up there should be replaced by the word vent! Anyway we nattered LARP because of course we did and after he left my brain was … Read More
I recently joined Noom because I’m four stone overweight. Last time I needed to lose weight I did it mostly by myself and via willpower. This time around I’m allergic to raw fruit and vegetables (technically I was last time I just didn’t know it…) and have chronic pain and fatigue. My willpower is more … Read More
Ma abilitee en francaise devrait etre meillure que ca. D’accord. Je dois l’utiliser plus souvent. Le Lundi es la jour du francaise! Ma blog sera en francaise, les lundis, a partir de maintenant. Preparer-vous pour a l’ecriture terrible! Aujord’hui j’ai en rhume et j’ai passent la journee dans la lit ou sur la sofa. C’etait … Read More
So, world creation is my jam, I mean it really is. There is nothing I like better than creating my own world that fits together except perhaps being a part of the creation of a world with other people. That is exactly what we are doing here. People are enthusiastic and full of ideas and … Read More
Finally I’m done with the practicalities of being Live Rep. I decided to post one final message to the refs, after consultation with the Jellicle and DS Luke, this is what I came up with: I’m about to leave this conversation so a couple of things before I go. First I want to say Thankyou … Read More
Yesterday I fucked up in a way I haven’t for years. Communication via text is always problematic for me but yesterday was completely and utterly spectacular on my part. Having anticipated a difficult conversation I suddenly found myself misunderstood by two people I assumed wouldn’t misunderstand me. The conversation went completely backwards to my expectations … Read More
