(Content warning – descriptions of me being in pain and thinking about death, including parental death) So I had heart palpitations and a small increase in blood pressure (went from normal to pre high) following about a week on the Lisdexamfetamine and a glass of wine – although according to the doctor that didn’t actually … Read More
I like the idea of the anglo-Saxons, that April as a whole is Eostre month. I am out of the habit of my pagan celebrations and I’m really not feeling up to it in anycase. So bits and pieces here and there is my answer, across the whole month. The new meds are wiping me … Read More
When I’m stressed I lose track of time, I don’t mean like I’m late I mean I get floaty and it takes me a good couple of minutes to remember when, where and what year this is. The thing is I also lose track of information, to a much greater degree than I had realised … Read More
I think I might be Depressed. But that doesn’t feel right to be honest, I feel somehow dissociated from my own self. None of this feels like The Swamp, I’ve been managed my own Depression pretty well and this doesn’t feel right. My willpower is pretty shot right now, I know that I have excess … Read More
My sense of time is… to be honest I’m not sure I really have one. I don’t mean the way I’m often late to things but that I can’t tell sometimes when or how things happen, like I need to really think in order to anchor myself in the timing on any given thing. I … Read More
Something strange happened at the weekend which I didn’t notice at the time. I asked someone how many partners they had, they said five serious and two play and I said whew that’s too many. The thing is, that didn’t used to be, for me I mean obviously. I’m not even talking pre-Jellicle when it … Read More
DS Luke convinced me to head out to the D&D movie. I treated myself to a full on self-date including VIP seating in the cinema, I even wore a nice dress and did my makeup. It was fun and I think it’s the first time since my birthday that I’ve dressed myself up and gone … Read More
(Content warning Frank descriptions of my thoughts and feelings about the weekend just past) Seeing them hurt. Seeing them and realising how bad my mental health had been last year really hurt. I mean it’s still pretty bad, I’m still being stupidly gentle with myself to try and make sure the basics are happening or … Read More
I’ve got to admit I’m pretty impressed when it comes to gaming my brain. The last time I was here I did yoga every morning before the game started, so yesterday I stashed my yoga stuff in the same room as I used for it last time. (I am lacking a beautiful Spanish roleplayer doing … Read More
I was hoping to play Ten Candles but the Chellington Centre doesn’t allow candles inside and it was raining so Radio Phil ran Dread inside instead. I rather liked it, it used jenga instead of dice for decisions and obviously if you knocked the tower over then that meant grave consequences for your character. This … Read More
