(Content Warning, some mention of real world emotional states) I LARP to cry. Specifically I LARP to properly sob, ideally crawling around spottily expelling deep sadness. I LARP to bleed. Not literally, I mean the Nordic term where you access your real emotions in order to further the scene. I guess I method LARP. Or, … Read More
(Content Warning – Mental Health naval gazing again, a bit of moaning) I am used to my memory being bad, as in, it’s humorous, Mish forgot this that or the other. Mish ended up here and she should have been there. I am used to thinking that the worst of a bad memory I have … Read More
Honestly living in Japan was basically a gift to being poly. A whole extra day of romance! Normally I luck out and I’ve given gifts to The Jellicle on Valentines so I get something lovely today – not so this year though! I wasn’t well and was alone in the house while the Jellicle was … Read More
I get very frustrated with my brain of late. I’ve been too tired to get out of bed for most of last week. If I was out of bed I was at work. I haven’t done yoga in about three weeks. There’s a constant toing and froing in my thoughts asking if this is physical … Read More
The back of my mind still subscribes, annoyingly enough, to the idea that I am not ‘a gamer’ – whatever that means. I don’t play ‘real games’, in my head. This despite the fact that I love Zelda, that I have actually played one MMORPG (Secret World) and that I will join in and play … Read More
One of the really annoying things about having had COVID straight after Giovanni and having been unspecifically ill this week is that I’ve not managed to do as much studying as I wanted to for the current massage diploma. I am distinctly behind where I wanted to be and it’s annoying me.I like studying, it’s … Read More
(Content Warning – this is more me naval gazing about my own poor mental health, mentions suicide) The thing about the writing part of trauma informed therapy is that you end up going off into the things you need to examin to get past them. And mostly the stuff I’m trying to get through is … Read More
So, I started blogging in 2002, this site’s archives go back to 2003, I have been struggling to explain what I’m doing with this since the beginning. Never mind to anyone else to myself as well. I have used the phrase “something to entertain myself on the train” and overused the word diarise frankly. It’s … Read More
(I mean I guess content warning for Stray but really not spoilers) The Jellicle and I picked up Stray to play ‘together’ (at the same time). It’s great fun pretending to be a cat… I loved the little tutorial but where I was running through the overgrown area with my cat buddies and I was … Read More
(Content Warning: More mental health stuff) It has been a standing joke for as long as I can remember that despite not being born Catholic I automatically feel guilty about everything. Some of this I put down to Anxiety… ok I’m easing off a bit on the ‘I have never had anxiety it was misdiagnosed … Read More
