My work is varied and weird, freebies and things I have received or been able to buy on expenses include magic the gathering cards, dungeons and dragons books, an awful lot of coffee and of late a whole buttload of LUSH products. I am more than happy to enjoy the bath bombs but now there’s … Read More
There’s a lot in therapy at the moment about setting healthy boundaries, about thinking about who toshare what with. It may suprise you, oh reader of my public diary, that I do in fact have boundaries. Or maybe it won’t if you know me to speak to and can tell how much of what I … Read More
I have had nightmares on and off throughout my life. Usually when I haven’t realised what I’m stressed about sometimes when I have. Last night my subconscious was spectacular. It took the nightmare from last year and the pedestrian getting hit by the car from last week and combined them. Then I was seducing a … Read More
I am glad that I know Glasgow pretty well, not only because it makes studying there easier but also because it doesn’t feel as bad as perhaps it would knowing that the last time I was here I went on a date with The Fae Ref. I suspect if I ever end up in A&E … Read More
There was a book by Emma Frost that I read and it stayed with me in that way that some books do. I’ve blogged about it before. Because that book very much effected my views on getting stuck in the conventions of relationships. Relationships that impress me remain those that are wide eyed and self-knowing. … Read More
Trauma informed therapy is a bit different to previous therapy I’ve done, it’s very focused. I like it and I hate it, which is why I suppose I become a fan of therapy every so often.I have previously described it as being like taking all your clothes off but frankly I do that a lot, … Read More
I do know that it’s just how it feels but it is very difficult to feel that things haven’t just spiralled completely down the drain since November. My pattern finding brain is trying to find links that just aren’t there. Crashing the car has causality to my state of mind but seeing really horrible things … Read More
2020 was a study in grief for me, an understanding of the sheer heaviness of it, the shaking emotion of it. Every day I had to remind myself in the morning that my father was dead, because I was terrified that I would forget and try to call him or have to relive the initial … Read More
(Content Warning – this is pretty grim in case the title doesn’t give that away) In the last ten years I’ve seen three people be run over in Lancaster and thats honestly beginning to feel like a lot. My whole life is beginning to feel like a lot to be quite honest, which is possibly … Read More
Last year I wondered if I actually was Greyromantic, I was caught up in I think one of the most intense romances of my life. I do love regularly, I love widely, apparently I can love a lot deeper than I thought, but romance? Romance varies from partner to partner, a take out and chips, … Read More
