Really early on this year I learnt something strange about myself, that when someone I know how to touch dies, my hands mourn. Dudge died before he got to my promised massage and I found that my hands could feel him. Were mapping out how to touch him, could feel were to pull back and … Read More
I am staying in The White County at The Jellicle’s parents for Christmas. I’m not sure the last time I was here for Christmas, to be quite honest I’m not sure the last time I wasn’t working until Christmas Eve or Christmas Day and yet this year I finished yesterday and I’m not working again … Read More
Yesterday I went to see the doctor about getting a diagnosis sorted out. Ended up in a conversation about trauma and information processing. Turns out when I couldn’t work out why I was struggling to process the dance calls at The Printers Guild Ball and was wondering if it was the low lighting or something … Read More
I had forgotten how much of a physical feeling heartbreak is. The first time my heart was broken was just before Christmas, possibly even Christmas Eve, I had a secret boyfriend and I had to go up to the payphone the otherside of the village to call him and talk to him without my parents … Read More
(Content Warning: Attempted Suicide, Violence, gory description, mentions of my own problems with suicidal ideation) FJ and I sat down tonight and drank the last of my good whisky. I had about a triple I suspect. I haven’t needed a drink like that in a long time but tonight I really did. I need to … Read More
I have a boyfriend again. The concept of it is a bit, sort of confusing to me I guess. But it’s good, I’m sort of almost meditating on the idea of it and coming up with a level of contentment that I wouldn’t have expected a couple of years ago. The Fae Ref spent the … Read More
This is such a weird question to me. I don’t know. When do people start to know? I’ve always known that I find women incredibly attractive, but when I was a teenager the level to which that was normalised seems a lot more than now, like obviously all women find women attractive, it doesn’t mean … Read More
The thing is, it really does depend why you’re scared to come out. It’s one thing if you’re a nervous teenager discovering who you actually are but in an otherwise supportive situation, it’s entirely another if you’re in a country where being queer is illegal or if you’re in a part of this country where … Read More
Oh I really liked this prompt, I love to cook and making food is a major love language of mine, Pride is all about Love so yes recipes for Pride is an excellent idea! So ok, I want some celebration but I also want some practical considerations here, so I’m going to be putting together … Read More
So what are my letters within this QUILTBAG of ours? I massively prefer using Quitlbag because I can say it as a word. I know a number of people don’t but hey this is my blog so suck it I guess. I’m very obviously B, bisexual… I’ve just realised that my beloved Quiltbag doesn’t have … Read More
