I am currently sat here feeling a tautness in my chest and my heart is pounding. Nope I’m not having an asthma attack and I’m pretty certain it’s not my heart. Is my left arm ok? Yeah my left arm is ok. This whole thing is getting to me. I’m managing some stuff fine but … Read More
Content Warning: I swear I have occasionally thought that my Dad might be a bit of an edgelord. (I mean to be fair I’ve thought this about both of my parents, my great uncle and myself so I’m in no position to criticise) This dates from way before edgelord was in my vocabulary and it’s … Read More
I did not sleep well last night. Got to sleep in good time and then at oneish the Jellicle thinks I might be awake so calls out at my door to see. I didn’t get back to sleep for another three hours. 8:30 sharp I’m making breakfast and on the local discord server “morning bus … Read More
As is pretty obvious from my sudden increase in blogging, although I’m pretty stoic in the face of this situation, I am stressed. Suddenly today there’s been an increase in my background tension and it’s definitely because I’m going back out to work tomorrow. I could call in and say I can’t do this, I … Read More
I love the game I run for my antipodean friends but I do not love the time difference. I love the buzz that GMing gives me, there is a great deal of fun in creating stories with your friends. I started out a shared narrative roleplayer, tomorrow I’m DMing Dungeons and Dragons so that’s a … Read More
Nearly the end of my week off. I say week off, I’ve been working from home, sending emails and making phonecalls for the high risk guy I can’t go in for and prepping things for other client’s I’m working for at the weekend. Obviously this being me I’ve also organised two tabletop rpg games, one … Read More
Once, when I was ten or eleven and I and my family were on holiday in the south of France, we went to a beach the day after a storm. The waves were like nothing I’d seen before and like nothing I’ve seen since, though I’m sure they grew in my imagination. In my memory … Read More
Why don’t I feel like I’ve lost control over my life? Where’s the panic and anger and fear that I see all over facebook and the mainstream media? Am I not paying enough attention? Do I trust the government too much or do I believe in myself too much? This is serious, I could die, … Read More
Yesterday evening I started a seven day isolation. I have had contact with a possible instance of coronavirus seven days ago, no definites but due to the fact I work with high risk people there’s not much room for maybes. I don’t have any symptoms but of course that’s what the seven days are all … Read More
“The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far.” – HP Lovecraft “It’s a popular fact that … Read More
