(Content Warning – description of seeing a suicide attempt. A lot of rambling and a lot of Mental health stuff) About six months ago I saw a girl in school uniform hanging from barbed wire under a bridge. And it totally wrecked me. I’ve been doing a lot of therapy. I’ve been doing a lot … Read More
The pandemic was a strange time, I made a lot of friends all over the place. I like to make friends, it’s a distinct advantage to being me. The disadvantage or one of them is the godsdamned insomnia and nightmares when I’m trying to work through my shit. Work has provided me with a quite … Read More
I’m pretty fucking angry right now. Today I was explaining to someone that I had worked throughout the pandemic. I was asked if I worked retail. No… I was asked if I worked in healthcare, specifically the first question was if I was a nurse. No… I explained I was a support worker. Oh like … Read More
What happened this weekend? I travelled to Devon and I hung out with a lot of people I’ve never met before in a large house. And I hugged as many of them as were happy to. What it’s really reiterated to me is that I am a massively tactile person and a lot of touch … Read More
Is it geting better? I have no idea, but this constant assessment of risk is beginning to get to me. I deliberately went into a coffee shop the other day on my lunch break. Yes absolutely it was stupid…sort of, there was me and the barista in the whole place. But I just need to … Read More
Everything is exceptionally hard at the moment. For everyone obviously, but this is my damned blog so I’m going to write about me. All that adrenaline that I was operating on last year is just stopping me in my tracks, like, not the heaviness of grief but something akin to the swampiness of depression. My … Read More
I am struggling to be motivated to do much of anything right now. The pandemic is almost over and I’ve been living in a state of reasonably high alert for over a year now. I know all the things I should be doing to combat this stress reaction, hell I’ve even been able to do … Read More
Last year I had a good time reconnecting with me hella queer roots by taking part in #RemotePrideMonth – sure we’re opening up again but some of us are still doing weekly COVID tests and not hugging our families without some serious risk assessments. So I’m going to do it again. These are the prompts. … Read More
I was talking with my Mum about the effects of the word social distancing dynamics on The Smol Dragon today. This conversation kicked off because The Bonsai Kaiju told The Princess he was very sad they couldn’t go to other people’s houses due to the nasty germs. The Princess and Britney were pretty much – … Read More
Here I am still going out and working in Tier 3 with a vulnerable adult who is getting more vulnerable (absolutely due to lack of stimulation caused by lockdown). I’m basically betting on my O-negative blood beating out my dodgy immune system and sucky lungs. I’m not as nervous as I was back when no … Read More
