So, I’m at the point where this has become Hard. As in I actively do not want to do this anymore. I want to hug my friends. I want to call up a lover and fuck. I want to have a party where we are all jam packed into a garden. Obviously I’m not going … Read More
That stages of grief woman got the emotions bang on. I seem to be rapidly cycling through them some days and other weeks floating through different ones much longer. What is really helping though is my having taken LSD. Not recently, but in the past. (Seriously it was hard already to get hold of it, … Read More
I have been and am very lucky. I’m very social as standard, I have a lot of friendly acquaintances and friends and I honestly haven’t found this lockdown to be an isolating experience. Dad dying did completely shut me down, there appeared at least three people at my door bearing gifts and cards and flowers … Read More
The prompt for today was show a Queer Person in your life some love. I don’t think that I have the words for how much I love my Jellicle Cat. She is and has been since I met her the most patient and lovely person I have ever met. I am incredibly lucky that she … Read More
Ok I don’t live in Manchester but I did rather enjoy the All Together One Voice concert this evening. They picked some good songs and it had the feel of some of Folkestone Pagans COVID lockdown rituals, I mean I felt like I was participating with others as a community. I guess I’m surprised by … Read More
If you had asked me last year what I thought about videoing funerals I would have said there was no need. Upon further questioning I like to think I would have admitted the use of live-streaming for family in disparate parts of the world to attend. (I say this because I delayed going to Japan … Read More
My Dad died last month, on the 22nd April. It was heart failure due to his leukaemia on top of an underlying heart condition, but because the UK is in the middle of lockdown it’s taken this long for us to have a funeral. That and last week there was a point we wondered if … Read More
My main problem is that a great deal of the structure of my week remains the same. The media, social media, everything is talking about how life has changed and it has – queuing for supermarkets, not getting to close to people, most of my LARP activities have been cancelled. However, my work week remains … Read More
Walking up to the park I passed two parked police cars in the St Martin’s driveway. I had a brief and strangely familiar sinking sensation. My letter declaring me a council approved keyworker was in my handbag which I had left at home. Of course I didn’t need it because I was walking. Blue sky … Read More
I am currently sat here feeling a tautness in my chest and my heart is pounding. Nope I’m not having an asthma attack and I’m pretty certain it’s not my heart. Is my left arm ok? Yeah my left arm is ok. This whole thing is getting to me. I’m managing some stuff fine but … Read More
