CW: Suicide I have a real problem with suicide. I’m technically too old to be an Emo and too young to have been an actual Goth. (Though tell that to the neighbour who called eighteen year old Mish’s dyed black hair a phase). But I’ve got the Anxiety, Depression and Suicidal Urges to go with … Read More
I am thirty seven. I have no children. I am not displeased by this but I am surprised. I had assumed that I would end up with children no matter what I tried to do with my life. The notion that what I do, what I aim for and what I attempt actually affects my … Read More
I have a strange relationship with cleanliness, though I expect that it’s a similar one to that which anyone who has had serious depressive episodes or a physically limiting chronic illness has. I have, at my most depressed and at my most fatigued (which have crossed over, one causing the other) spent days in bed, … Read More
A word of warning, this post may veer into the self-congratulatory. Feel free to comment appropriately. Earlier I was explaining to someone that I had been diagnosed with my fourth chronic illness. They reacted. My inner voice as they reacted was basically saying “calm down it’s not a tragedy.” I suspect their emotional response was … Read More
