What happened this weekend? I travelled to Devon and I hung out with a lot of people I’ve never met before in a large house. And I hugged as many of them as were happy to. What it’s really reiterated to me is that I am a massively tactile person and a lot of touch … Read More
Content Warning: Self-Harm, Disordered Eating – rambly format I am on a complete high following an online LARP on Saturday. I really am enjoying the Together Forever setting, (though admittedly I haven’t played the poly iteration of the game) I’ve written before about it’s dystopian future dating premise. This game was based around the couples … Read More
One of the things I’m doing these days is heading into a care home on the regular. Today I went in and there was a white haired old lady looking vague as she slowly walked along the landing. I stepped to one side to let her and her stick get past. Sometime later in my … Read More
In two weeks I will complete my current run of therapy. It’s been a bit of a trip, working through and processing old trauma right in the middle of new trauma. Trying to remain present when all this is happening around me is really hard and my coping mechanisms have gotten really unhealthy. On the … Read More
I knew I was on borrowed time when Selfie King came up for Hanami last year, he was on the train home as Johnson made the announcement about the first lock down. We had our picnic and then we all holed up in our houses, well, except for those of us key workers who just … Read More
Content Warning: Suicide I have two more weeks of therapy left and I don’t think I have the words for how much I have cried on Thursdays this year. My therapist is ridiculously kind to me, except she isn’t, she’s normal person kind and I’m apparently ridiculously harsh on myself. Which I would ridicule except … Read More
Tonight DS Luke came over for dinner. There was a risk assessment beforehand, and he did an LFT, but The Jellicle and Imp agreed it was probably less risky than… well the entirety of my job. I made lasagne, a tricolore that wasn’t perfectly achieved, three types of cheese, yoghurt in the béchamel and my … Read More
Is it geting better? I have no idea, but this constant assessment of risk is beginning to get to me. I deliberately went into a coffee shop the other day on my lunch break. Yes absolutely it was stupid…sort of, there was me and the barista in the whole place. But I just need to … Read More
(Content Warning: I have included a link to a picture of someone falling from the towers behind the words “one person plunge”) Did you know, I’ve never written about September the 11th on here? Or nothing that’s stuck at any rate. Given the various server drops this blog’s anniversary turns out to be eighteen years … Read More
Contains Spoilers for SparkLRP’s games Thread and Weave. (Currently neither are intended to be run again but, y’know.) I’ve come to the conclusion that my preferences in LARP are hugely similar to my preferences in art. Had a conversation with a friend about when you worry if your game idea is pretentious or not and … Read More
