Rejection Sensitivity is one of those things that I’ve always kind of assumed I don’t have. I certainly don’t get sensitive to everyday rejections, or rather things that other people seem to perceive as rejection but that I don’t. I think that’s the key point here really I don’t assume I’m being rejected right up … Read More
It’s a full moon tonight, or it might be tomorrow I’m not totally sure (yeah I know not great witching on my part) in any case it’s big and round enough as makes no odds. It looked spectacular and I viscerally missed the year I did full moon rituals in the grove. I might go … Read More
I have a horrific fascination with cults. Especially the sort of really dodgy ones with a personality st the centre persuading the members to do horrific things. Obviously I have a fascination with suicide cults – it’s not really my suicide ideation st play there though, it’s more about a fascination with what the human … Read More
Last week Beautiful Lute sent me a TikTok link which was a neuroscientist talking about rewriting your brain to appreciate tiny little joys. I’m not right at the moment mostly because I think working through trauma makes you miserable whilst you’re going through it and I seem to have so much just going on with … Read More
Beltane is one of those festivals that I feel like I struggle to connect with and yet, when I do it right I find it full of energy. Doing it right is of course making it about other people. Beltane and Samhain, I need to remember are mirrors of each other, they’re all about others, … Read More
I had promised myself that I would see meerkats today. There is a burst pipe so the meerkats (and other animals) are closed. I am really quite sad about this. I am therefore looking at previous meerkat pictures. Someone suggested that perhaps I was especially sad because I had LARPdrop. I said maybe but I … Read More
No nicknames used here, first names only. I’m maudlin at the drop of a hat at the best of times but the other week when I had the bad reaction to the Lisdexamfetamine I genuinely wondered if I was about to drop dead that second with nary a real warning or indication it was going … Read More
I actually felt some semblance of connection around the Sigehold campfire tonight. Which is pretty good considering I haven’t really been feeling that lately. It was just the trace of it but it was enough to enjoy for now I think. The fire was not especially warming against the cold but the stories were familiar … Read More
I struggle regularly, but especially when talking about this blog in real life, with explaining why this is on the internet. Why do I have a blog if not to in some way pose for my audience or perceived audience… and that is in some way true or at least I always thought it was. … Read More
Today I cried. Nominally because I was printing out massage forms for a case study and it wasn’t The Racconteur. This is the first course I’m doing that he isn’t one of my case studies. My tutor in Glasgow is never going to tell me she thinks I made him up. For the last fortnight … Read More
