I struggle regularly, but especially when talking about this blog in real life, with explaining why this is on the internet. Why do I have a blog if not to in some way pose for my audience or perceived audience… and that is in some way true or at least I always thought it was. … Read More
Today I cried. Nominally because I was printing out massage forms for a case study and it wasn’t The Racconteur. This is the first course I’m doing that he isn’t one of my case studies. My tutor in Glasgow is never going to tell me she thinks I made him up. For the last fortnight … Read More
Mary Quant is dead. In the picture the Guardian used for the article about her death she looks so fucking modern. My Great Aunt Joyce once told me that you buy clothes that last and then accessories that are fashionable but honestly I did not know quite how much truly stylish people do that – … Read More
One thing I do like about going to my niblings birthday parties is I essentially get to LARP as a perfectly normal person. I got asked if the Tiny Yokai was mine several times, I was amused. I also got to wear my dinosaur dress and it was excellent fun, I need a better bra … Read More
I’m very excited about my middle nephew’s birthday party on Friday. It’s dinosaur and monster truck themed and I bought myself a dinosaur dress. I went for a skater dress rather than a faux fifties thing. I need to be able to move for a four year old’s birthday and not have my petticoats at … Read More
(Content warning – descriptions of me being in pain and thinking about death, including parental death) So I had heart palpitations and a small increase in blood pressure (went from normal to pre high) following about a week on the Lisdexamfetamine and a glass of wine – although according to the doctor that didn’t actually … Read More
I like the idea of the anglo-Saxons, that April as a whole is Eostre month. I am out of the habit of my pagan celebrations and I’m really not feeling up to it in anycase. So bits and pieces here and there is my answer, across the whole month. The new meds are wiping me … Read More
I think I might be Depressed. But that doesn’t feel right to be honest, I feel somehow dissociated from my own self. None of this feels like The Swamp, I’ve been managed my own Depression pretty well and this doesn’t feel right. My willpower is pretty shot right now, I know that I have excess … Read More
My sense of time is… to be honest I’m not sure I really have one. I don’t mean the way I’m often late to things but that I can’t tell sometimes when or how things happen, like I need to really think in order to anchor myself in the timing on any given thing. I … Read More
Something strange happened at the weekend which I didn’t notice at the time. I asked someone how many partners they had, they said five serious and two play and I said whew that’s too many. The thing is, that didn’t used to be, for me I mean obviously. I’m not even talking pre-Jellicle when it … Read More
