(Content Warning: Mental Health navel gazing) Today I got up and made two types of onigiri, some dango and not a great version of Mochi. As is traditional the Jellicle and I were late to get to the picnic under the cherry blossom and DS Luke, Arg Mike and The Live Rep were there before … Read More
One of the harder things about having Chronic Fatigue is knowing where it came from. See when I was eighteen I had Glandular Fever and then it kept coming back – despite various doctors telling me that this didn’t happen and I just had a bad cold. Or, memorably that I had glandular fever right … Read More
(Content Warning mentions therapy and ASD, there’s a frank mention of sex at the end). I’ve written here before, about two or three years into my relationship with The Jellicle about the way I feel love most within a group of interconnected loves. M-i-L has been very grateful in the past that my way of … Read More
(Content Warning, some mention of real world emotional states) I LARP to cry. Specifically I LARP to properly sob, ideally crawling around spottily expelling deep sadness. I LARP to bleed. Not literally, I mean the Nordic term where you access your real emotions in order to further the scene. I guess I method LARP. Or, … Read More
(Content Warning – Mental Health naval gazing again, a bit of moaning) I am used to my memory being bad, as in, it’s humorous, Mish forgot this that or the other. Mish ended up here and she should have been there. I am used to thinking that the worst of a bad memory I have … Read More
Honestly living in Japan was basically a gift to being poly. A whole extra day of romance! Normally I luck out and I’ve given gifts to The Jellicle on Valentines so I get something lovely today – not so this year though! I wasn’t well and was alone in the house while the Jellicle was … Read More
I get very frustrated with my brain of late. I’ve been too tired to get out of bed for most of last week. If I was out of bed I was at work. I haven’t done yoga in about three weeks. There’s a constant toing and froing in my thoughts asking if this is physical … Read More
The back of my mind still subscribes, annoyingly enough, to the idea that I am not ‘a gamer’ – whatever that means. I don’t play ‘real games’, in my head. This despite the fact that I love Zelda, that I have actually played one MMORPG (Secret World) and that I will join in and play … Read More
(Content Warning – this is more me naval gazing about my own poor mental health, mentions suicide) The thing about the writing part of trauma informed therapy is that you end up going off into the things you need to examin to get past them. And mostly the stuff I’m trying to get through is … Read More
So, I started blogging in 2002, this site’s archives go back to 2003, I have been struggling to explain what I’m doing with this since the beginning. Never mind to anyone else to myself as well. I have used the phrase “something to entertain myself on the train” and overused the word diarise frankly. It’s … Read More
