(Content Warning – my mental health is still not great and this is a musing about that) The last couple of weeks has been bad when it comes to my mental and physical state. Then, driving home from the Empire event a friend messaged me. And my entire body relaxed. The whole conversation I was … Read More
(Content warning – a whole lot of up myself naval gazing but then this is what you’ve had for weeks isn’t it? Mentions ASD and ADHD) There is a confidence that comes with diagnosis and talking to a professional who can explain what’s going on in your head. It matters what you tell yourself, and … Read More
(Contains spoilers for Les Miserables) Apparently this year I go and see shows in London. This time it was for work. I can tell I’m not over the latest bout of covid because everything just made me incredibly tired. When I wasn’t supporting the boss I was laying down or sleeping. I’m back on the … Read More
I’ve been concentrating on therapy to deal with trauma symptoms – trying not to dissociate and remain in the present, and appreciating that some of it does apply to dealing with ADHD. Mostly the stuff about staying in the present and getting organised. However, I’m really struggling with any of the organised elements of work … Read More
(Content Warning – talking about mental health and self diagnosis, specifically mentioning ADHD, ASD, CPTSD, Depression also referencing suicide ideation) I keep seeing pro-self-diagnosis and vehemently anti self diagnosis things up on Facebook, Twitter and TikTok, hell The Comic Satyr even referenced me in their tweet about it. Originally I was very pro-self-diagnosis because there’s … Read More
(Content Warning – more of me musing on my mental health which is pretty poor right now) I’ve mentioned before my struggling with the way Laura Richards signs off from Real Crime Profile, her sign off is ‘Always trust your instincts’ and I’ve written before about how I was taught not to trust my instincts, … Read More
The pandemic was a strange time, I made a lot of friends all over the place. I like to make friends, it’s a distinct advantage to being me. The disadvantage or one of them is the godsdamned insomnia and nightmares when I’m trying to work through my shit. Work has provided me with a quite … Read More
I kind of hate the compliment some medical professionals use – that of having good insight into your mental health condition. I mean I get it, it’s like warning the phlebotomist that you might faint before she takes your blood. But, when you’re literally trying to think about what’s happening and the sodding organ that … Read More
I’m pretty fucking angry right now. Today I was explaining to someone that I had worked throughout the pandemic. I was asked if I worked retail. No… I was asked if I worked in healthcare, specifically the first question was if I was a nurse. No… I explained I was a support worker. Oh like … Read More
I have spent large sections of my life hypothetically wondering whether I could stand up for my pacifism in situations that could lead to my demise. Like Quakers in Warzones do or like my Great Uncle during World War Two. I had never thought I might actually have to and yet this is rather closer … Read More
