One reason I’m feeling very ‘waiting for the other shoe to drop’ is because of my usual crisis reaction. If something bad is happening I never (or almost never) react in the moment. Upset isn’t useful so I push it to one side and it happens later when I can deal with it. The problems … Read More
I had today off. I spent it dyeing my hair. I played some Minecraft on a shared server and some multiplayer Stardew Valley. It was all very gentle and mostly involved making things look nice on a screen. I didn’t go out all day and I feel so much less stressed than I have in … Read More
I had today off. I spent it dyeing my hair. I played some Minecraft on a shared server and some multiplayer Stardew Valley. It was all very gentle and mostly involved making things look nice on a screen. I didn’t go out all day and I feel so much less stressed than I have in … Read More
There’s something that people are saying, that I’ve said even, that I don’t believe. “When this is over” “When things get back to normal” I think that this situation reminds me a lot of first getting ill. I say first getting ill, my particular combination of improperly healed injury and glandular fever that wouldn’t leave … Read More
(Content Warning: Contains Mention of Suicide Ideation and Death, Spoilers for Little Women) I’m going into work in a bit. Yeah, there’s a plague (I’m not sure if I’m allowed to call it that). But yes, I am a key worker and I need to go in and sort out medication for an at risk … Read More
Sometimes I catch myself feeling astonishingly self-satisfied with my life. I have travelled (four continents and counting), I have eaten some truly weird stuff (including guinea-pig – several times, alligator – not recommended and rat-onna-stick – kind of wish I was joking about that one) and I have met some fascinating people (the guy who’d … Read More
I think one of the most annoying and frustrating things that people have said to me since I started sharing my chronic fatigue symptoms was about yoga. The comment that they didn’t understand why I found yoga poses to be cardio exercises. Now, yoga can be cardio, but generally they’d be talking about my finding … Read More
In a very real way I am living the life I wanted to as a kid. Sure, if I were to meet my eleven year old self now I’d have to tell her that I didn’t go to Oxford University (and am actually pretty relieved about that) and am not yet a published author (it … Read More
I have pretty much just slept for two days straight, pretty much the only reason I got up today was work. The Boss needed a prescription picked up (technically I’m on holiday from them but available in emergencies) and The Magic Fan needed some socialising. I tried out Magic the Gathering Unstable for the first … Read More
My parents are coming to stay for the Winter Solstice. It’s the first time I’ve shared a Pagan celebration with them and the first time they and the core polycule will be in the same place. It’s not the most stress-free of Yuletides. So, why do this to myself? Well, my parents aren’t immortal and … Read More
