I actually felt some semblance of connection around the Sigehold campfire tonight. Which is pretty good considering I haven’t really been feeling that lately. It was just the trace of it but it was enough to enjoy for now I think. The fire was not especially warming against the cold but the stories were familiar … Read More
Today I cried. Nominally because I was printing out massage forms for a case study and it wasn’t The Racconteur. This is the first course I’m doing that he isn’t one of my case studies. My tutor in Glasgow is never going to tell me she thinks I made him up. For the last fortnight … Read More
I was hoping to play Ten Candles but the Chellington Centre doesn’t allow candles inside and it was raining so Radio Phil ran Dread inside instead. I rather liked it, it used jenga instead of dice for decisions and obviously if you knocked the tower over then that meant grave consequences for your character. This … Read More
Baking is something I really enjoy but tonight im absolutely doing it in order to displace nerves. This weekend will be the first time I’ve seen my Welsh partners since we broke up. I’ve never done a long distance break up before and I have no idea how to do this. I suspect in actuality … Read More
(Content Warning, some mention of real world emotional states) I LARP to cry. Specifically I LARP to properly sob, ideally crawling around spottily expelling deep sadness. I LARP to bleed. Not literally, I mean the Nordic term where you access your real emotions in order to further the scene. I guess I method LARP. Or, … Read More
My first Empire event of the year. I was originally looking forwards to it, a chance to get out and do things, get into Empire without my Welsh partners being there. Then – everything seems to have gone wrong and I’m not in a great headspace. The Jellicle made me jewellery especially for this event … Read More
I am so not a Nordic LARPer. I mean, yeah ok anyone who’s played with me is going ‘yes Mish, this is correct’ but turns out I can’t even get my terms right.I’ve been using bleed to mean after-effects, emotions you’re still feeling the Monday after Time Out, because honestly when I was introduced to … Read More
(Content Warning – I’m being hellishly frank about my mental state in this entry. I’m talking about all that good stuff, mental health, including specific diagnoses, I doubt there’s spoiler for Giovanni: Children of the Black Sun, but no promises. Oh yeah and rape/non-consent and suicide warnings because this is me) I have to admit, … Read More
(Content Warning – may contain spoilers for the game, Giovanni: Children of the Black Sun, mentions violence, suicide, rape, mental health issues, things I thought were hot when I was a teenager) Forever ago during the pandemic Cairns in Texas posted a link to a game she wished she could get to, a vampire game, … Read More
The thing about emotions is they come across you in waves, and I do mean like the sea. There are the lapping waves that you can see coming and there’s a predictable regularity to them and then sometimes there’s a storm out deep at sea and it moves all the water around until the waves … Read More
