(Content Warning, some mention of real world emotional states) I LARP to cry. Specifically I LARP to properly sob, ideally crawling around spottily expelling deep sadness. I LARP to bleed. Not literally, I mean the Nordic term where you access your real emotions in order to further the scene. I guess I method LARP. Or, … Read More
My first Empire event of the year. I was originally looking forwards to it, a chance to get out and do things, get into Empire without my Welsh partners being there. Then – everything seems to have gone wrong and I’m not in a great headspace. The Jellicle made me jewellery especially for this event … Read More
I am so not a Nordic LARPer. I mean, yeah ok anyone who’s played with me is going ‘yes Mish, this is correct’ but turns out I can’t even get my terms right.I’ve been using bleed to mean after-effects, emotions you’re still feeling the Monday after Time Out, because honestly when I was introduced to … Read More
(Content Warning – I’m being hellishly frank about my mental state in this entry. I’m talking about all that good stuff, mental health, including specific diagnoses, I doubt there’s spoiler for Giovanni: Children of the Black Sun, but no promises. Oh yeah and rape/non-consent and suicide warnings because this is me) I have to admit, … Read More
(Content Warning – may contain spoilers for the game, Giovanni: Children of the Black Sun, mentions violence, suicide, rape, mental health issues, things I thought were hot when I was a teenager) Forever ago during the pandemic Cairns in Texas posted a link to a game she wished she could get to, a vampire game, … Read More
The thing about emotions is they come across you in waves, and I do mean like the sea. There are the lapping waves that you can see coming and there’s a predictable regularity to them and then sometimes there’s a storm out deep at sea and it moves all the water around until the waves … Read More
Spent last night in a bar encouraging certain roleplayers to abuse me in character, most of whom I had never met before. I was feeling very confident last night, apparently GermanLu talking about my vagina in a cocktail bar to total strangers feels weirdly like home. Sometimes I do become aware that I am a … Read More
I started explaining to M-i-L and FJ that the biggest lesson I had learnt over the weekend was not to have a first kiss whilst in character and they started laughing. I had actually forgotten that I reffed their first kiss… or at least I was a ref that weekend. I still maintain watching him … Read More
(Content Warning: mentions LARP sucide, real life bereavement and real world mental health, is a very rambly ramble about a LARP with way too many digressions AND contains Spoilers for The Castle LARP) Photos by Míša Portychová So, The Castle, whew. It was amazing. Despite all my nerves, and I had many, I came out … Read More
(Content Warning – Discussion of Suicide, Suicidal Ideation, Suicide in a LARP context) I was on such a high after that LARP. Because of course I ended on what has on occaision been lovingly referred to as a Mish Special (this one didn’t really deserve that, it was very low-key). I had forgotten the utter … Read More
