I dissociate, I dissociate a lot and when I get stressed I dissociate even more. It’s a real problem and it got a lot worse over the pandemic. Ok, it’s not a problem when I go to the dentist, at the dentist it’s actually massively useful because then I don’t freak out about the horrible … Read More
I really like the process of dyeing eggs. Layering up wax and multiple colours, it’s me when faced with a process again I love a set of steps to go through. Psanky is a traditional Ukrainian art and I’m not great at it yet but I am getting better every year. I think the mechanics … Read More
(Content Warning: Mental Health navel gazing) Today I got up and made two types of onigiri, some dango and not a great version of Mochi. As is traditional the Jellicle and I were late to get to the picnic under the cherry blossom and DS Luke, Arg Mike and The Live Rep were there before … Read More
One of the harder things about having Chronic Fatigue is knowing where it came from. See when I was eighteen I had Glandular Fever and then it kept coming back – despite various doctors telling me that this didn’t happen and I just had a bad cold. Or, memorably that I had glandular fever right … Read More
(Content Warning mentions therapy and ASD, there’s a frank mention of sex at the end). I’ve written here before, about two or three years into my relationship with The Jellicle about the way I feel love most within a group of interconnected loves. M-i-L has been very grateful in the past that my way of … Read More
(Content Warning, some mention of real world emotional states) I LARP to cry. Specifically I LARP to properly sob, ideally crawling around spottily expelling deep sadness. I LARP to bleed. Not literally, I mean the Nordic term where you access your real emotions in order to further the scene. I guess I method LARP. Or, … Read More
(Content Warning – Mental Health naval gazing again, a bit of moaning) I am used to my memory being bad, as in, it’s humorous, Mish forgot this that or the other. Mish ended up here and she should have been there. I am used to thinking that the worst of a bad memory I have … Read More
Honestly living in Japan was basically a gift to being poly. A whole extra day of romance! Normally I luck out and I’ve given gifts to The Jellicle on Valentines so I get something lovely today – not so this year though! I wasn’t well and was alone in the house while the Jellicle was … Read More
I get very frustrated with my brain of late. I’ve been too tired to get out of bed for most of last week. If I was out of bed I was at work. I haven’t done yoga in about three weeks. There’s a constant toing and froing in my thoughts asking if this is physical … Read More
The back of my mind still subscribes, annoyingly enough, to the idea that I am not ‘a gamer’ – whatever that means. I don’t play ‘real games’, in my head. This despite the fact that I love Zelda, that I have actually played one MMORPG (Secret World) and that I will join in and play … Read More
