Thé body feels everything, I can’t work out if it’s social expectation that has me locating my emotions so viscerally or if genuinely the emotions live in specific areas of the body. Obviously I’ve had covid so I’m very tired and flat out with that but also I’m very sad this week. I think the … Read More
Today I’m about to go into a game of dungeons and dragons (as the game-master). The players are probably going to be asking about the Halfling trickster god who last year I decided to describe as The Racconteur. I’ve done that before, memorialised people in games. Somewhere in an Unknown Armies Chicago there are giant … Read More
(Content Warning – Talking about Transphobia, Bigotry, Hate Crime, Violence, Murder) When Sophie Lancaster was murdered I felt sick. I felt like she was punished somehow for society deeming it unacceptable to beat up the QUILTBAG and people who weren’t white or practiced different religions. As if hatred and anger cares about respectability. It felt … Read More
I am so not a Nordic LARPer. I mean, yeah ok anyone who’s played with me is going ‘yes Mish, this is correct’ but turns out I can’t even get my terms right.I’ve been using bleed to mean after-effects, emotions you’re still feeling the Monday after Time Out, because honestly when I was introduced to … Read More
(Content Warning – I’m being hellishly frank about my mental state in this entry. I’m talking about all that good stuff, mental health, including specific diagnoses, I doubt there’s spoiler for Giovanni: Children of the Black Sun, but no promises. Oh yeah and rape/non-consent and suicide warnings because this is me) I have to admit, … Read More
The thing about emotions is they come across you in waves, and I do mean like the sea. There are the lapping waves that you can see coming and there’s a predictable regularity to them and then sometimes there’s a storm out deep at sea and it moves all the water around until the waves … Read More
I’m one day into a three day vampire game and struck by the same thing I always forget when it comes to Vampire. Vampire is not a horror game, it has some of the set dressing, sometimes its pitch crosses over but at base it is a political game, not a horror game. I’m playing … Read More
Spent last night in a bar encouraging certain roleplayers to abuse me in character, most of whom I had never met before. I was feeling very confident last night, apparently GermanLu talking about my vagina in a cocktail bar to total strangers feels weirdly like home. Sometimes I do become aware that I am a … Read More
I am in my happy place, one of them anyway, one that is a state of mind that I haven’t been in for a long time. I’m in a bar, surrounded by people who I know and I have had several conversations tonight about roleplay, talked tech with a guy and drunk a couple of … Read More
If I ever make it as an author it’s going to be because I drive a lot, all my best ideas come whilst driving. I’m not entirely sure that makes me safe on a motorway but I’m going to hope so. Possibly I’m too introspective or maybe this is going to be how I make … Read More
