Spent last night in a bar encouraging certain roleplayers to abuse me in character, most of whom I had never met before. I was feeling very confident last night, apparently GermanLu talking about my vagina in a cocktail bar to total strangers feels weirdly like home. Sometimes I do become aware that I am a … Read More
I am in my happy place, one of them anyway, one that is a state of mind that I haven’t been in for a long time. I’m in a bar, surrounded by people who I know and I have had several conversations tonight about roleplay, talked tech with a guy and drunk a couple of … Read More
If I ever make it as an author it’s going to be because I drive a lot, all my best ideas come whilst driving. I’m not entirely sure that makes me safe on a motorway but I’m going to hope so. Possibly I’m too introspective or maybe this is going to be how I make … Read More
I admit that the massage diploma has cost an awful lot. I’m pretty poor right now (and The Jellicle is striking a lot this year) and the diploma is a chunk of change. To be fair it’s not the diploma itself that’s the problem it’s the driving and staying overnight that’s a bit much. However, … Read More
At some point in Ghost in the Shell: Stand-Alone Complex the Major talks about why she has a watch on her wrist, an analogue one at that. I have all sorts of things in this house that help me to remember, things that wrap me up in the people and experiences that I have had. … Read More
It’s CF’s birthday next week, and I’m going to go to London to celebrate it. I promised him a pie at some point but have no chance to make it, I may have time to make a cake or brownies or something. I thought about buying him a pie from Potts but to be honest … Read More
I am currently working through therapy in a trauma group. I’m desperately trying to process far too many emotions after really only opening them up last year. I’m unwell in some unspecified way and I’m pursuing diagnosis for mental health treatment on top of everything else. I am normally pretty chill about men’s physicality. A … Read More
My work is varied and weird, freebies and things I have received or been able to buy on expenses include magic the gathering cards, dungeons and dragons books, an awful lot of coffee and of late a whole buttload of LUSH products. I am more than happy to enjoy the bath bombs but now there’s … Read More
There’s a lot in therapy at the moment about setting healthy boundaries, about thinking about who toshare what with. It may suprise you, oh reader of my public diary, that I do in fact have boundaries. Or maybe it won’t if you know me to speak to and can tell how much of what I … Read More
I have had nightmares on and off throughout my life. Usually when I haven’t realised what I’m stressed about sometimes when I have. Last night my subconscious was spectacular. It took the nightmare from last year and the pedestrian getting hit by the car from last week and combined them. Then I was seducing a … Read More
