It’s complicated to try and divide how being Queer vs how societies perceptions of being queer affected my mental health. Because honestly, being attracted to other girls, in and of itself, hadn’t been a problem. The feelings surrounding trying to keep it hidden, those have fucked me up. I think on some levels they still … Read More
For most of my life I have been Depressed and for some of that I’ve also suffered with Anxiety. That has I think been responsible for my pervading sense of isolation, I complained earlier this year that my main LARP character, Liissá wasn’t especially fun to play because she is essentially a very lonely person. … Read More
It’s pride month and although I have changed which prompts I’m using there’s always going to be a coming out story one. Despite the fact that I keep pointing out that I’ve come out a lot over the years, because whilst straight remains the assumption all of us who aren’t are going to have to … Read More
Ok I’m doing new prompts for this pride month. I did two years with the previous ones, and I’m starting with my favourite content creators. I’m not sure I like the term content creators by the way, I’m pretty sure artists covers all bases… but in anycase. Over on instagram I follow the Uncle Davids, … Read More
Love? Men? All of the above? (Content warning – serious navel gazing and I’m talking about my love life) Saying I didn’t do love when I was nineteen was a nice shorthand for ‘I’ve read the Ethical Slut’ (I hadn’t) and I want to sleep around without people getting pissed off or me cheating on … Read More
I started explaining to M-i-L and FJ that the biggest lesson I had learnt over the weekend was not to have a first kiss whilst in character and they started laughing. I had actually forgotten that I reffed their first kiss… or at least I was a ref that weekend. I still maintain watching him … Read More
(Content Warning – Discussion of Suicide, Suicidal Ideation, Suicide in a LARP context) I was on such a high after that LARP. Because of course I ended on what has on occaision been lovingly referred to as a Mish Special (this one didn’t really deserve that, it was very low-key). I had forgotten the utter … Read More
Yes – it’s that time again – I played yet another Together Forever game! That makes my seventh… or at least the seventh that I’ve written about on this blog. There are other reviews out there but if you want reminding about mine then I’ve got entries on the 19th October 2020, 1st September 2021, … Read More
I’m feeling quite chuffed with myself today, chuffed and exhausted! I signed up to Sands Challenge 13 this year. When I was asking what I should do, previously I’ve usually swum over the course of a month until getting to thirteen miles (although previous years it’s been fifteen or fourteen) The Riddling Gatekeeper suggested boardgaming. … Read More
I have spent large sections of my life hypothetically wondering whether I could stand up for my pacifism in situations that could lead to my demise. Like Quakers in Warzones do or like my Great Uncle during World War Two. I had never thought I might actually have to and yet this is rather closer … Read More
