There was an afternoon I spent in London with The Funniest, we were in a park somewhere eating ice creams. Earlier in the day I had made my discovery of the genius that is Reggae Reggae Sauce on bacon sandwiches. I can’t remember if it was just after The Jellicle had split with Princess Lex … Read More
For years I have assumed that my sense of smell has just deadened over the years down to asthma and allergies. My primary asthma symptom has always been sneezing rather than coughing so that threw people a bit when it came to noticing my breathing. That and the allergies. So I just figured that all … Read More
(Content Warning – this discusses my personal history of suicide ideation – I am frank about being suicidal as a teenager. Don’t worry I am not actively suicidal right now) I have been suicidal for the vast majority of my life. Most of my adult life has been about managing that desire/urge/background assumption. I don’t … Read More
It’s a full moon tonight, or it might be tomorrow I’m not totally sure (yeah I know not great witching on my part) in any case it’s big and round enough as makes no odds. It looked spectacular and I viscerally missed the year I did full moon rituals in the grove. I might go … Read More
I have a horrific fascination with cults. Especially the sort of really dodgy ones with a personality st the centre persuading the members to do horrific things. Obviously I have a fascination with suicide cults – it’s not really my suicide ideation st play there though, it’s more about a fascination with what the human … Read More
Last week Beautiful Lute sent me a TikTok link which was a neuroscientist talking about rewriting your brain to appreciate tiny little joys. I’m not right at the moment mostly because I think working through trauma makes you miserable whilst you’re going through it and I seem to have so much just going on with … Read More
Beltane is one of those festivals that I feel like I struggle to connect with and yet, when I do it right I find it full of energy. Doing it right is of course making it about other people. Beltane and Samhain, I need to remember are mirrors of each other, they’re all about others, … Read More
I think this was a great idea to spend this weekend specifically painting in my Mum’s garden. Specifically pagan themed painting on a May Day weekend. I have had a hugely variable relationship with Gods over the years though my understanding of them and ability to interact with them really developed over the rituals and … Read More
I have always been fascinated by the relationship between my Mum and the Green Man. Genuinely he is all over her garden and her garden is spectacular so he clearly favours her. But then wouldn’t you favour an unconscious and wholly natural worshipper? She buys green men at garden centres and gets me to paint … Read More
I like to wear jewellery, one thing that really cheered me up during the pandemic was wearing jewellery. This bracelet started out life as a tourist trinket for evil eye averting in Greece: At some point during the pandemic I was wearing a pentacle, a St Christopher and this evil eye bracelet to the extent … Read More
