(Content warning Frank descriptions of my thoughts and feelings about the weekend just past) Seeing them hurt. Seeing them and realising how bad my mental health had been last year really hurt. I mean it’s still pretty bad, I’m still being stupidly gentle with myself to try and make sure the basics are happening or … Read More
I’ve got to admit I’m pretty impressed when it comes to gaming my brain. The last time I was here I did yoga every morning before the game started, so yesterday I stashed my yoga stuff in the same room as I used for it last time. (I am lacking a beautiful Spanish roleplayer doing … Read More
I was hoping to play Ten Candles but the Chellington Centre doesn’t allow candles inside and it was raining so Radio Phil ran Dread inside instead. I rather liked it, it used jenga instead of dice for decisions and obviously if you knocked the tower over then that meant grave consequences for your character. This … Read More
I just got off FaceTime to my Mum in which I did a reasonable impersonation of snorting cocaine slightly to the side of the screen. This is obviously because today I got a prescription for Lisdexamfetamine and the doctor had to give me a briefing about not taking illegal drugs or alcohol with it. I … Read More
Today DS Luke sent the WOW Addict to talk to me about the new poly relationship she finds herself in because I’ve been poly for over twenty years at this point… I don’t think I’ve ever felt like a bigger hypocrite. Yeah sure I’m great at poly if we ignore last November when I had … Read More
(Content Warning – discussion of suicidal ideation, remember the Samaritans are always there for you 116 123) Usually when I stay in Glasgow I end up at the Leonardo on a last minute offer because it’s pretty much unused over a weekend. This weekend that has not happened and I went for the cheapest option … Read More
(Content warning – yet more mental health navel gazing, mention of roleplaying sexual assault) Dissociation is something that in reflection I’ve always been trying to avoid, things that ground me are things that I enjoy doing and they’re largely physical. I’ve always struggled not to paint with my fingers and to wear gloves when I’m … Read More
Aside from the closest I’ve come to a period of Depression this year (more like serious emotional dysregulation to be honest) I have drawn a tarot card daily. Last year when I was in Glastonbury with the Blue Cat and Tarot Pupil I picked up a deck called The Witches Wisdom deck and rather fell … Read More
When I started work for Hijinks I began to see how mental and physical health intersected. I got a really good primer for how to operate when my chronic fatigue meant I had to stay in bed and do all the things my body would associate with Depression. In all honesty I’m just constantly picking … Read More
I dissociate, I dissociate a lot and when I get stressed I dissociate even more. It’s a real problem and it got a lot worse over the pandemic. Ok, it’s not a problem when I go to the dentist, at the dentist it’s actually massively useful because then I don’t freak out about the horrible … Read More
