I was reminded earlier today of a poem, an ex had recorded it for me at one point and I fancied listening to it. So I did. That may have been a mistake. I listened and was, I dunno, spinning out. I was sobbing and I was real in my toes, maybe, I wasn’t here … Read More
It’s a curious thing to begin to feel real after a year of really really not.
(Content Warning: Suicide, recent real world suicides my own thoughts on my own mental health, don’t read if you’re not in the right place) Today I heard a man I barely knew but had had some intense online conversations with over the pandemic had killed himself. He was a LARP photographer so he had touched … Read More
It’s easy enough when it’s a dead author to distance yourself from them whilst still enjoying their works. But what do you do when they’re still alive and creating? In J K Rowling’s case it’s been pretty easy not to engage with her continuing content, the Robert Galbraith stuff is just crap and the whole … Read More
Well, I managed to run Evil Bilbo’s Game at The Smoke. It was ok, it needs de-gendering a bit more, hadn’t noticed quite how gendered the names on the family tree were until right at the end when my lovely experienced players had to go with it. Got almost all possible endings out of the … Read More
So I did not do well at keeping them last year but I rather think that’s because my mental health was in the absolute toilet. Today’s tarot reading rather confirms that and re-emphasises that I work best with rhythms to my days.
And brace. Strictly has no same sex couples this season. Well maybe the celebrities asked didn’t match up for that to be a thing? I wouldn’t stress about it except that they released a statement saying it was because they wanted to return to traditional something or others… what? Values? Good old fashioned homophobia? ‘Traditional’, … Read More
It’s the utter waves like water of The Swamp that I hate. Woke up this morning with more apologies than a Canadian and figured that that really was going to be it for today. I’m just incredibly sad with no reason why. Trying to explain what I do for work is miserable, there’s always been … Read More
I’m managing to have more fun when it comes to Sigehold socials and social Empire roleplay but they are absolutely the thing that has written large to my psyche quite how disconnected I was feeling. The wild disassociation of a mental break is like nothing I’ve experienced previously but negotiating what part of my psyche … Read More
Today I had a very surreal experience. I was at work and I suddenly came over wanting to cry but obviously couldn’t so I tried to concentrate on work and felt like I’d divided myself in two and one of me was screaming in a tiny room. It was so real, it was like I … Read More
